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Tuesday, August 31st, 2004
5:27 pm	Can't complain... Surprisingly everything is going exceptionally well. I have nice funny friends, good classes/teachers, my mom's being as normal as she can be, and...my new friends are trying to hook me up with a cute date for HOMECOMING..i didnt even expect to go to this homecoming. And with a date for that matter...it's one of these 2 guys that are quite cute and one of them told my friend i'm cute lol...whoa that's confusing...there's only ONE problem and that is...i've never talked to this feller lol hopefully i'll get around to that haha...anyways...that's basically all that's happening with me...i've been getting a ton of hw tho...that's a bummer, but the good thing is i'm actually doing it AND when i get lazy i have study hall 2nd hr. so i can do it thurr...oh and i have a cold and that definately sucks, my nose is constantly running *very attractive i might add* lol and i cant freaking breathe, not to mention i have to take p.e in this new school of mine and we run 2 laps around the track everyday and naturally i'm nearly dead by the end of it, lol probably would be better i wasnt siiiick. well i guess that's really about all that i have going on with myself...i could go into gay details but i really dont feel like it, and i dont think u'd read it anyway lol...Later dude Current Mood: hopeful (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, August 29th, 2004
12:03 am	The Weekend woohoo... Wow, my weekend didnt suck! Today Brianna and Jennie (my new friends :-D) took my shopping, and i got some new shoes for homecoming, 15 bucks quite a deal i might add. Then Troy (my step-cousin) and his friend lance took my to see without a pattle, hilarious movie i might add. I guess that's about all that's going on, I think i'm getting a cold :-/. I can't miss any school til Thanksgiving!! I better not be sick monday. Ughhhh I'm so effen tired...This is a short entry but that's all i really have to write...Later :-P... -Where the hell are we? -I'd say we're in bum fuckin you got a purty mouth. ((without a paddle)) Current Mood: okay (Comment on this)
Saturday, August 28th, 2004
12:36 am	Day 3 as the new girl Well, everyone...Things are looking up. Tonight I went out with a friend I made in Alg. and her 3 other friends...I had fun and she is now talking to me and I really hope it all works out so that i know i have one group of friends lol. Everyone has been really nice so either they're geniunely(?) nice or they just want to see if i'm "cool" enough to hang with them haha. oh well, if it works it works if not oh well i dont have too long here. I guess that's basically it with me. I still really miss everyone in AZ. Cody's having a big party tomorrow and i'm bummed b/c im usually the first person invited and the last to leave hah...it's just weird to be like oh..yeah everyone will be there...EXCEPT me hah...i dunno kinda selfish but we all have our moments. Also my mom's letting me go see MELISSA for the whole thanksgiving break i'm super excited :-D and then x-mas in ARIZONAAAAA yayyyy. well im pretty damn tired so i think i'm gonna hit the sheets 'night. Current Mood: content (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, August 26th, 2004
10:29 pm	Day 2 as the new girl Well things are going pretty smoothly...nothing major has happened...school's alright, the ppl are alright, i hope everything works out. i guess the bottom line is i dont want to be there :-/ i miss u guys in az, and this is a DRAG...oh well...i'm beat sorry i dont have more to write, just thought I'd add at least something...oh yeah a really weird gross nerd lol hit on me AH...haha ppl warned me too :-/ hope nothing else happens to me YIKES haha...well this is it for tomorrow...sorry i'm not exciting, i'm just so exhausted* Current Mood: tired (Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 25th, 2004
3:52 pm	First Day... Well as you may or may not know today was my first day at Indianola High...Talk about a freakin insane school...Turns out the majority of our school is on some kind of drug, we have a ton of "special needs" kids, and it's majorly clicky. I do not know what I'm going to do. Everyone's really into sports and school stuff, I guess that's the best thing to do here, and I'm fine with that it would be cool to get involved. All my classes seem like they'll be a breeze with the exception of alegbra II and Chemistry I heard those classes are gonna be a bitch, but again that's fine. Also, my escort was really cool her names Amanda and she seems fairly popular and extremely nice, I hope I made a good impression and we'll become friends and stuff, her friends seem really nice and I met people in every class so that was good, I just hope they don't think I'm totally weird or I dunno I just hope they want to "except" me God this is gay lol...I hope I make some normal non-reject friends :-/...As far as hot guys, I didn't see many and I'm sure they all have girlfriends because just like az there's a ton of pretty girls DAMNIT lol...But we do have a local college so I'm sure there's got to be some hotties there...Man the school is confusing though everything is very similar and crowed I hope I don't get lost on Friday without my escort :-/ that would be embarrassing...Well, I guess that's about it for now...I have homework...I miss arizona! Current Mood: blah (Comment on this)
Monday, August 23rd, 2004
5:15 pm	...UhHhHh... SO...I babysat Larry's kids today and almost poked my eyes out...talk about space invadors lol...But anyway...today was by far the longest day here...Then my mom came home all bitchy, man she makes me crazy...and i also have to make other arrangements for x-mas :-/ rar she's so irritating...however, i am indeed going out :-)...that'll be good Next Subject: SCHOOL...is in 2 days AHHH...i'm really really really REALLY nervous...this is gonna suck, i'm not excited, it better be like hot guy central that's all i have to say lol and the girls better all be UGLY. =) i can dream cant i? Well...I really don't have much to write about, except I have thee entire house to myself and I am pretty happy about that...maybe Larry, my mom and the kids won't come back, then i can say i was abandoned and move back to az...:-/ k i'm going crazy i admit...I guess I'll stop rambling now Current Mood: nervous (Comment on this)
Friday, August 20th, 2004
10:25 pm	Its hard to wake up, when the shades have been pulled shut This house is haunted, its so pathetic, it makes no sense at all Im ripe with things to say, the words rot and fall away If a stupid poem could fix this home, I'd read it every day                I'm not sure why I'm writing but I am.  I'm not mad anymore I guess, I think it's almost been 2 days since Larry and I have seen each other lol...there's a perk about having a big house...School's in less then 5 days. I'm so freakin nervous, but at the same time anxious, hopefully the person who's been chosen to show me around the first two days isnt a total reject...with my luck he/she probably is.  I think it's a girl because the way the secretary was talking...She was actually pretty nice, I felt really uncomfortable in there...My counsoler *sp* thinks I have major issues I bet haha...whatever.  I dunno school's gay no matter what...I just need to get good grades that's all that matters right now...I'm totally rambling right now, I think I'll stop haha...Maybe if something pops in my head I'll write more :)...          ((I hope she doesn't make him laugh...because his laugh belongs to me)) Current Mood: blank (Comment on this)
12:03 pm	...OmG...       WoW...alright so...yesterday I mentioned the fight with my mom, which apparently still isn't over.  I'm really getting upset about how she can express how she feels in any manner but I on the other hand am expected to sit there with no reply.  That's fine until she blaims me for her failed marriages OMG!!!  I never told her to get married 5 times to 4 different weirdos and yes I said four, because my dad's not a weirdo lol. But Larry has made the cut.  She said that I'm going to make an effort for mine and his relationship not to work so that this marriage goes down the tube as well.  Well, if she was worried about that to begin with why didn't she...just leave me in arizona!?        I can not handle this petty crap anymore, maybe the two of them should just leave me alone, I barely leave this room as it is.  I have no desire to take advantage of my oppurtunity with Larry, I've had enough step-dads to know I dont need or want one.        My dad called me yesterday and offered to let me live with him.  I wish I could take him up on that =<...my mom would killlll me before she let that happen.  I can't say I'd be happier, but I'd be better off.  Well, I guess I'll leave it on that note...That's about all I have going on in my life...I wish things weren't so complicated... Current Mood: numb (Comment on this)
Thursday, August 19th, 2004
3:26 pm	Falling Apart So...last night my mom and I had a fight...surprise surprise right? well...it was at the dinner table and larry kept his mouth shut like a good little bitch...then waited until i went to my room to tell my mom that andie *my sister* will never talk to my mom or him like that and that i'm disrespectful and rude well WHAT THE FUCK did he expect...i have no respect for either of them so whoopdee fuckin doo...i guess he was also "hurt" when I asked why his parents are staying at our house for this huge party we're having...and the reason i asked is bc we already have a ton of ppl staying over and they live a half an hour away...why would they need to stay here? was i out of line? i'm so pissed off...larry has no room to judge me and talk about me and about respect...i dont think he respected his wife when he cheated on her all through their marriage and then left her for another woman...and i think he's rude for talking about me behind my back maybe he should grow some balls and say it to my face...i specifically told my mom our relationship was never going to be the same if she moved me here...did she think i was bluffing? apparently so...why should i respect someone who has no respect for me and doesnt give to shits about what's going on in my life. Larry has no idea how my mother and i got along before all this shit...she and i used to be extremely close...and thanks to him, we've fallen apart...now it's not entirely his fault, but where the fuck does he come off telling my mom how i am HE DOESNT KNOW ME...omg i'm so upset right now...but i'll stop complaining for this entry...today i went to my new school :-/ and got my classes picked out...i'm actually taking some cool classes the way their schedule works out is pretty cool so i'm kind of excited about that...my counselor was pretty cool too...so i've written a ton today...i'm very bitchy lol...i'm just not a happy camper right now :-/ Current Mood: pissed off (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 18th, 2004
2:19 pm	Just another day in IOWA I've been watching my little sister Andie these past 3 days...she can be such a brat lol...but that's ok I love her anyway...Also these past three days I started working out with my mom and went on a low carb diet...I've lost 3lbs 12 more to go...I miss bread lol but that's ok...anyway...I'm really happy to finally have my computer set up :)...and my room is pretty kickass but...doesnt matter bc none of my friends can see it...man this sucks...i'll just start counting down the days til x-mas...that will be a life-saver...I guess that's basically all that's been happening with me..and as far as my family everything's pretty much the same, my mom's a wacko and larry's a total suck-up :)...but that's ok that's how it should be ;-) with the exception of my mom being insane haha...Well...I have to pick-up a perscription today bc turns out there was a reason for my weight-gain...DRUGS JUST WHAT I NEED lol...they're not happy pills unfortunately...but school starts in...7 days AH...i have everything ready...well i have to go take out the trash... (Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 17th, 2004
1:18 pm	It's been a while... Well...I live in iowa now haha...I just got back from visiting my dad and that was the highlight of my summer...I am so not excited about starting school...so many things are running through my head I want it to work out, but I wish I didnt even have to be in this position...my mom should've just let me stay in az...ughhhhh...I guess I havent really excepted all this yet, I'm sure school will be a rude awakening...But anyways...right now I'm babysitting my sister...lol my only friend is 4 years old...that's inspiring...But hopefully i'll be out in az for x-mas break...melissa...the lady i used to live with said I can definately stay with her and that way i'll be able to visit everyone...my mom better not be pulling a fast one on me with saying i can go i'm so tired of her lies...we're getting along fine but the irritation is still there...well nothing is going on in my life so i dont really have anything else to say except i miss everyone :-( and this SUCKS... Current Mood: nervous (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 15th, 2004
1:41 pm	Keeping you posted... A lot has happened these past few days...Brace yourself to read about the real drama in my life... My mom got my grades two days ago and it fueled a lot. She pushed some buttons she shouldn't have and I did the same. I came so close to being able to move back to Arizona...Then she through my dad into the equation and that shot Arizona right out of the picture...Her tactic was to get me in Iowa by throwing my dad in there. There were a few statements she said to make me not want to be anywhere near her, so I'm going to be living with my dad as of Saturday...I'm scared, sad, and angry. I don't even know what to think right now...And having my mom call me thirty times a day to yell and scream at me isn't helping...She told me she hates me with every bone in her body and I'm dead to her...That would be fine if my best friend didn't have to hear it all...I'm a simple girl...why cant i have a simple life? I dunno what I'm gonna do in New Hampshire...hopefully just gather myself and focus on me :-/...At least I know ppl out there...I hope my family doesn't like disown me...But if they do there's nothing I can do i guess...Well I guess that's all I wanted to say, it feels good to put this out...Easy to type then to say outloud...Later Current Mood: worried (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 9th, 2004
10:27 pm	Moving Sucks I am in the middle of packing right now and i'm so upset...I really hate this, summer has just begun and all this great stuff has been happening and i have to move...My mom is so selfish. She told melissa, "I know Jenny, she will do a 360 degree turn around once she gets here, because that's what she did in Japan" Apparently her memory is clouded. When she moved me there I locked myself up in my room whenever I was home, and prefered to be at my best friend's house because her family believed in me when mine didn't...ummm is that what she wants to happen when i go to iowa? gosh she is retarded...moving on... Last night I stayed at Alysia's...actually her boyfriend Ryan's...and guess who is roomate is :-D steven...That was fun...a lot of fun, Steven's a really awesome guy and it pisses me off even more that I found a kickass guy right before I have to m-o-v-e...Rar... Next Subject-Tonight I went to Chili's with Melissa, Kieth, and Tomas...Tomas is a funny guy...pretty hot too...a little old for me...but he told me I'm an amazing young woman...I was like yaya ;)...lol So that was fun...Melissa also cracks me up...I'm going to miss this life so much... I guess that's all for tonight... Current Mood: sad (Comment on this)
Sunday, June 6th, 2004
10:36 pm	Just another day... Except this day was pretty damn fun. I went to Sedona with Cody, his mom, and sean fleet for their baseball game, and we had a blast, i jumped of a cliff TWICE at slide rock and it was so fun =). Cody's mom is awesome too, they asked me to go to the game in Prescott Thursday, so I probably will. I also got a card reading from a pyschic...seems to me like my future is looking up, I'm really excited now it was a cool experience. Like I said a lot of fun haha. Then tomorrow I'm hanging out with my good friend Kaylee. That should be fun, bc there's never a dull moment with us too. I leave Friday and that kinda sucks, but I'll most likely be back, however I am going to try it out... Well I guess that's all for today... Current Mood: optimistic (Comment on this)
Saturday, June 5th, 2004
2:20 pm	This computer is...wonderful This computer has a death wish...I don't know what's wrong with it. But my mom ordered me a flat screen dell...for when I go to iowa :-x...It's starting to get to me how much I'm going to miss everyone...I'm almost positive I'll come back, and I hope it'll be the same. I have made some great friends here,  it makes me so mad at my mom i can't handle it!...this is the last thing I want to stress about...oh well. On the up-side, I get to visit Melissa for a week...I miss that trout...I haven't seen her in like 2 years and we're still just as close. I think she's the only friend I trust more then anyone, if you're reading this you  better feel special lol...But enough about the past :-P. Tonight Melissa, Kiether, Tomas, and Julie are taking me out for my going away dinner. I love those guys I know it'll be a blast. They said I could take a friend, but I dont think anyone would get as entertained as I do from those crazy a-holes.  I don't really know what else to talk about at this point in time..hope this fulfilled yer need to read about my life haha...Later*   Current Mood: calm (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, May 30th, 2004
11:32 pm	Don't You W.a.n.n.a...mm hmm So...     Yesterday I went to a little get together with melissa, kieth, and julie.  I was the designated driver.  It was pretty fun though although I didn't get to drink I had a good time being sober.  I think some things never change, and I mean that in a good way.  Also, I can't wait until highschool is over.  I feel like it's all just a mind game and the sooner I'm out the better.  I talked to people 10 years older then me and felt more comfortable I'm not too sure that's a good thing, I was also told I have an old soul. I'm sure a good portion of you all reading this would be like yeah Jen...old soul...uh huh her maturity hasn't quite developed yet. But maybe, just maybe you haven't caught onto my personality and sense of humor...lol who am i kidding, the second that guy said that i was like "yeah i just don't know anybody here"...but it was a good compliment and it makes you feel good when a 26 year old guy would rather spend his night at the party talking to your face as opposed to your chest which many boys in highschool do.  But that is in the past...        Today, I spent the day tanning and lounging. It was nice and all but I would really like the week to start and I need to hang out with my friends!!! jenn and i were supposed to hang out today, however she got in trouble...man i hate it when that happens but oh well...Tomorrow I have a big day of nothing planned I'll probably just stick around here for the Barbaque, that's cool and all, I just wish I could get out.  Tuesday...I have something planned but I can't quite pin that, Wed. I'm hanging out with Hector, and Thursday I'm off to see Troy with my good friend Gary...Hopefully there will be something in store for Friday...But man I've written a lot, hope this satisfied your need to read about my life ha...late* (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, May 28th, 2004
10:15 pm	boooored so today was the ulitmate boring day. hopefully tomorrow will be better oh well...i'm officially over it...i guess that's basically what i had to say lol...later all (Comment on this)
Thursday, May 27th, 2004
7:57 pm	Kenny Chesney has sex appeal that's right i said it...lol he's sooo hot, too bad he always has his head covered haha. but anyways...today was my last day as a sophmore, and it was alright until my world history teacher saw it as her last oppurtunity to yell at me. man i hate her, i just wanted to be like whatever you're fat. but nope i'm nice then that...haha anyways...i didnt really do anything after just came home slept, and now i'm babysitting.  It's kind of boring but someone that has no remain nameless is coming over, i think so that should make things more interesting.  I realize my entry last night was like...i dunno sounded bad, but i was just really upset and now i'm alright bc it's pointless to worry about that kind of non-sense.  lol i say that now...anyways...i really don't know what to put in this entry, other then i'm soooooooooo bored...rar...oh well. Ceppetelli Out* Current Mood: bored (Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 26th, 2004
9:57 pm	Sometimes it's seriously just pointless... It really seems pointless now to even bother helping other people. It also seems like I gave in too much.  I thought I had a true best friend and it turns out nope, I was just a person to cling to when they were ditched.  Jokes on me now, because I've been ditched.  I can't really describe what it feels like either.  Do people not realize that if it hurts them chances are it's going to hurt other people too? It's been proven that I'm just an "inconvience".  Another issue that's bothering me is, if you're going to say something you know is mean why do you say it anyway?  and then justify why you had offered to be nice by saying you had to because you were forced.  There are other ways around that people.  But at least now I realize who I can count on and who was never really there to begin with.  It's just a big oppurtunity for someone to be a hypocrite.  Maybe you should re-evaluate what you're doing and maybe draw a conclusion about what happened in your past.  An example of what I'm saying is, my mother has been married 5 times...and what I have learned from that is...Don't get married and if you do wait more then 6 months to make your decision.  An even better example would be If you have a friend that's there for you while you've been ditched by a "best friend", maybe don't go and ditch that friend and start treating them like a piece of shit.  Chances are it really doesn't make them feel any better then it made you feel.  I guess that's all I wanted to say and get that off my chest. I'm sure a good portion of you are like what the F bomb is this chick saying...I guess it didn't need to make sense, because there's only one person who needs to understand and probably won't because I've said it in an even simpler way, but oh well i just needed to write.  That probably makes even less sense, but hey that's why I'm the crazy one :)...Late* Current Mood: sad (Comment on this)
5:26 pm	I said yeah yeah yeah I got my usher cd from my buddy gilbert...I really think i'm going to bare his children...haha but anyways, school was good. i got a ride home with mark cook and we went to starbucks afterwards, he officially thinks i'm out of my mind, i should say knows...lol but he's not as terrible as i thought. i really hated him for a while. too bad it took til the end of the year for me to realize that haha. oh well maybe we can keep in touch. but anyways...julie *melissa's friend* is staying the night again, she's really nice and we all have a lot of fun. i wish i wasnt moving! man this sucks so bad...whatever everything happens for a reason i jsut have to keep that in mind. and i am going to have fun before i leave, i'll pimp it up ;)...i wish i wasnt moving, i want a boyfriend and i know who i want it to be, but i think in order for that to happen i'd have to be patient and seeing as how i move really soon i cant be lol...but yeah...I really don't know what to talk about except tomorrow's the last day of school! and i have plans with 3 different ppl, how F*in exciting lol...but yeah i guess that's it for now...Late* Current Mood: blah (Comment on this)